I wanted to update you all because I’ve been rather silent on Instagram, which is where I used to post daily all the time. I still update my stories a bit, but posts and videos have gone pretty scarce. I do want to get back to it because I love making fun little videos, but I wanted to explain a bit about what has been taking up a lot of my time lately.
I guess it all started when I helped my dad fix up a foreclosed house he got for cheap. I worked on the looks of the house which included painting and picking out what would look good in the house. I ended up falling in love with the house and asked if I could move in. So I did and have been there around 5 years. It was the first place I moved in all by myself, with Huntlie (my dog). To be honest, I would have never moved by myself if I didn’t have Huntlie. Being really excited for my first place, I decorated and made the house a home.
I took a lot of you all with me on the journey of me fixing up the house and decorating it, making it my own. I rented from my parents but it was fun to create a cozy space. Well, my parents ended up getting a divorce, which was totally unexpected and shocked everyone, including my mom. I was nervous that my living situation would be effected and recently, it had. My dad got the house I was renting in the divorce and he was planning on either selling it or moving in himself, so that meant I needed to find a new place.
He originally told me last winter he was thinking about selling it in March, but he wasn’t sure. I started wrapping my head around leaving the place I called home and loved so much. After not hearing anything until February, he made the decision to sell so I had to start packing. Packing took FOREVER because when you work a full time job at Costco, along with a part time job at the church, that doesn’t leave you with much time left over to pack. Plus, being on your feet all day on a super hard floor, my legs would ache by the time I made it home. But I did it. To be honest, it was harder emotionally than physically. I was loading up and labeling boxes containing my whole life. This was unexpected and it threw me into depression.
I lived out of boxes for months. I have this weird thing where if my surroundings aren’t clean and the atmosphere isn’t cozy, I can’t relax or concentrate. I was at the point that I just wanted out. I wanted the move to be over. My boyfriend, Kevin, was a huge help during this whole move. Like, so much of a help that I don’t know if I could have done it without him and his family. I already have trouble asking for help because I don’t want to bother anyone. I love helping people move, but others talk about it like it’s a burden so I don’t want to trouble them. I can be way too independent since I’ve been single for 33 years. I know, I need to work on that.
The worst part is that my dad doesn’t care. We used to be close. He left for Florida during my whole moving process. I thought he would be impressed that I got everything out of there before he came back. There’s some wear and tear with the house, but I’m not a regular tenant. I’m his daughter. He doesn’t even know where I’m staying now. He never asked. He hasn’t thanked Kevin for finding me a place to stay while I find somewhere to go. It’s disappointing. I didn’t know it was possible for people to just one day, stop caring. I have no hate towards him, just praying he learns how to love others again.
In the meantime, I’m temporarily living in Michigan City. Kevin’s brother owns a house there and is giving me very cheap rent with no bills so I can save money while I find a place. It’s a 4 bedroom house so I’m living in the extra bedroom downstairs. I have my own little, cozy room with string lights and cozy blankets. I have my clothes in totes. My TV is hooked up. Huntlie is comfortable, which was my main worry, because she was cautious at first. I do my best to keep the house clean and keep up with the dishes. The trash we all have trouble remembering to put out, but other than that we all get along.
All of my belongings and furniture are at my mom’s house temporarily until a find a new home, so I’m grateful her and her new husband let me store everything there. I was able to collect boxes from Costco so a lot of things are stacked up.
I’m gone 11 hours of each day, basically, since it takes me over an hour drive to get to work at Costco, so I’m not too much of a bother, I feel like. It is a 45min drive to get to church, which is where I also work. My poor Toyota. She has over 250,000 miles on her now!
This brings me to my next predicament. My car. She has over 250,000 miles on her and her transmission is slowly going out. Sometimes she struggles and jumps when going up hills. When I last got her oil changed, they told me she had a burnt transmission. I’m scared about what that bill will be. I don’t know how it is even possible to save money these days. I work and work just to make ends meet. I guess that’s “adulting”. I read somewhere that over 70% of millennials have more than one job. No wonder we are too tired to have friends lol Just kidding, I try to make time with my friends when I can.
I know God will help me find where He wants me to go next, but the uncertainty is slowly eating at me, when I let it. That, and being able to afford living on my own. Everywhere is so expensive!
I looked at a place in my budget the other day and I’m excited about it! I have been taking photos and videos of the places I’m looking at so I might share more about some possible places on here and Instagram so be sure to follow along! I’m trying to be excited for the next chapter!
Some specifics I’m looking for in a place are feeling safe, my neighbors are nice, the place allows dogs, has to be around 30min from work, good lighting, needs to be clean, budget friendly, and quick maintenance if something were to need fixing. I don’t care too much about looks of the place because I know I can make it “homey” no matter what!
Once I land on a place, I’m excited to decorate and design the new space! I started following bloggers who decorate apartments that are renter friendly so I want to start getting ideas as I’m looking at places! Can’t wait to make another place my home! I’ll take you all along on the journey! Let me know if that would be something you are interested in!
Once I get my life in order, I’ll go back to regular content, but recently I’ve gotten better at posting. Some of you probably have been noticing I haven’t been drinking out of my cute mugs or showing my living space and this is why. All my stuff is in boxes and my room is in a basement with little light for filming so it’s hard to make content, but I have some ideas up my sleeve that is coming soon.
Anyways, that’s the gist of my life. I know, a ton has gone on behind the scenes since I last shared. Goes to show you that you never know what is happening in other people’s lives so always choose to encourage someone. Also, jotting down lists of what you are thankful for helps during times of change. Focusing on the negative can hold you down. Through it all, God never leaves and I’m beyond grateful for all He has done.
Now that you all know what is going on, I’ll probably share more about where I’m at but there was a period where all I did was just exist so I didn’t feel like sharing much. Thanks for staying here, I appreciate you all being a part of my life!
